I need to remember that right now, you are my primary job. The cleaning can wait. The emails can pile up. The meals can be ordered. But no one else is going to be your mom, and no one else is ever going to love you as much as I do. I also bet no one else is ever going to find as much joy in your little smile or contagious giggle. No one will quite crave holding you while you doze like I do. While I'm at it, no one else will change more of your dirty diapers, or spend more midnight hours feeding you. No other woman will lose as much hair or sleep over him (I hope.) No one will ever spend as much time dressed in your spit up or soaked in your drool. This hump was a great reminder to slow down and appreciate all of it because while I love a well-checked to do list and a beautifully clean home, my real formula for happiness is your smile, little fingers, and sleepy head resting on my shoulder. Thanks, little one, for being the most darling of babies we could have imagined. T
June 18, 2015 Liam, tonight I’m sad! I put you to sleep, and usually I have so many things to do that I start getting fidgety and put you in your crib. Tonight, I couldn’t bear to. All of a sudden I am overwhelmed (and slightly angry to be honest) at how fast the time has gone! When you turned one, it was a completely joyous occasion. I kept waiting to feel the split emotions that I always hear about mom’s having at this milestone. I was having way too much fun with this new stage, and you sleeping through the night (haha) that I didn’t feel one ounce of it. But oh boy am I feeling it now! Tonight I held you, and watching your beautiful face for probably 45 minutes- until you started getting fidgety and wanted to stretch out. Where in the world has the time gone?! I wish I could live this year over and over again. You have been the biggest joy in my life. I’ve never laughed so much- ever! I can’t stay angry with you for more than 3 minutes. You are my happy, observant, fun-lov
On Sunday, April 13th we went on a walk with Daniel, Hannah, and their boys at Parque Taqueral. I was complaining that I hadn’t felt any braxton hicks in 2 weeks, and was convinced that this little man didn’t get the memo that he wasn’t supposed to stay in there forever. When we were moving to Campinas two weeks before, I was having lots of contractions and was worried he would come before I everything settled with the apartment. Not to mention we had a broken fridge, broken washer, a dryer that nobody could figure out how to hook up, and two leaks that were flooding our kitchen. But by now, I was ready and dying for our little guy to get here! We had a good time on the walk, but still no braxton hicks. I then woke up to some mild period-like contractions the next morning at 3AM. I couldn’t fall asleep (every time I was just about fall asleep another contraction would wake me up.) They consistently came every 30 minutes or so until around 9, when they seemed to be petering off. S
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